2000 & Great

This certainly has been a year to remember!
Some memories good... some bad... but all have left their mark.
Here at home we've seen an overflow in the news of child abductions
questionable deaths and, we've seen scandals and a call to arms.
and the battle for government control continues as it seems no one
can tame the many beasts that roam our city street.

Overseas we've seen weather patterns change, the world call on God or some higher power
as people become more and more disillusioned by the status Quo. A Global cry for help!

Amidst all the Turmoil we press on. Across the world many have drawn hope from a black
man with a middle eastern name sweep a nation as he prepares to snuggle with his wife in the master bedroom of the White House.

2008 if nothing else... is certainly the year the world changed. not in its slow evolutionary morph.
But in a Quantum Leap. What tomorrows brings is any ones guess.

It has definitely been a wild ride for me. Where do i go? What do i do? What will i become?
As i reminisce on simpler times i can't help but wonder at the thought: Everything that has happened, everything in is own way of working has brought us inexorably to this point. Right now! This moment!

A moment of Choice. A place where we have an opportunity to contribute to a new way of doing things. A chance to change our own lives.

In the morning i will awake to a new Sun.
In the morning i will awake to a new Day.

Where that day will take me is a Secret shared only by God and tomorrow.
I hesitate... can i face it? I know i must! It comes no matter what state i'm in!

Teach me how to trust! Teach me to face tomorrow.
I Step...

Paycheck!!

I Drove to Portmore last night and as road moved under rubber and steel, strange thoughts filled my head. They were not thoughts of comfort and joy. Anyway as the asphalt drifted beneath me the movie Paycheck came to mind. It's a tale about a reverse engineer, Michael Jennings who, in exchange for big money, takes items apart in order to rebuild them for other companies. After every job his memory is wiped back to the moment he started the job.

He is offered a massive paycheck to do a three-year job only to wake up three years later, the job done, but there is no money. It has strangely been replaced by a Envelop full of ordinary everyday objects. As he finds himself in a whirlwind of deceit, gunfire, and chaos, he realizes that the objects are all clues or aids in his mission - a mission not only to save the world but also himself.

As i played the scenes over and over in my head i wondered at the concept. The machine he was asked to create allowed him to see into the future. Because of that fact, ordinary everyday items became a powerful tool. He also realized that in giving up the money he could pay closer attention to the items and get a better understanding of what his true purpose was. A clear view of how to go about accomplishing the big picture. In the end he found love, greater purpose, and and a bigger payday than the one he gave up.

As we move around in our own whirlwind, what is it that has been erased from our memories? What are the clues that will guide us to the greater picture? What is the sacrifice that we must make - or that must be imposed upon us so that we may pay closer attention to the clues?

I search now through my own envelop. I scan the items! I try to understand what they must mean. But like Michael Jennings. I can't understand the clues until the puzzle reveals itself.

I eagerly await! What awaits me at the end of this puzzle?

Friends

The greatest asset in a time like this is to have friends.
People who care. People who want to give you a word.
People who are really concerned about your well being.
The kind of people who are willing to get on the knees and seek a word for you.
Some how even without results, just knowing that they are willing to act on your behalf is a blessing.
Its not easy being someone like that. It's not easy.

But thank you for being, Thank you for trying.

If i were to think of where i would like to be right now --
I could come up with a million other places.

But somehow - The smile from a little girl saying thanks for listening.
The look on a young boy's face for the fact that someone cares enough to just be genuinely concerned about what he's going through. Makes it worthwhile.

But how do you help when you are up against the wall.

You just have to keep trying.
You just have to keep trying.

Our Greatest Fear

Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate,
Our greatest fear is that we are powerful beyond Measure
It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us
We ask ourselves, who am i to be, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?
Actually - Who are you not to Be? You are a child of God.
Your playing small doesn't serve the world
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We were born to manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It is not in some of us: It's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear:
Our presence automatically liberates others.

Prayer
"Lord keep my hands clean
Show me what you want me to do today
and You take care of tomorrow"